Listening in:  just the sound of the air purifier at work

View from the Window:  the just before complete sunset color of night sky

Meal Plan:  Feed Yo' Self

Beauty in the Common Things:  fresh coffee and perfect sharpies

Y'all, the Drama Queen is soon to leave for college.  

This is more than I can emotionally handle.  

How do mommas do this?  

She will be 955 miles from home and my heart just can not handle it.  

Is she ready?  Of Course she is.  

Is she excited?  More than words can express.

Am I dying inside?  Every minute of the day. 

What I am doing is trying to savor every day she has left at home.  

I am replaying every bad decision I have ever made as a Mom.

I am afraid once she leaves...she will never come back.

I am Praying for her heart, her happiness, her future, and her dreams.

I guess second guessing everything is normal.  I don't know.  I am figuring this thing out as I go.  I hope that we have given her all that she needs to fly and I know that I am supposed to let her go.  I just haven't figured out how yet.

They say that you only have so many days, weeks, years and "they" are right.  I wish that we had taken the time to do some of the things we put off.  Gone some of the places.  Experienced some of the things.  Then I realize...we did and we have had some very, very fun adventures.  The next adventure is going to be the best one yet.  It is the one where my daughter gets to become my friend.  

Here's to the Future 

Dang y'all...its been awhile!

You know how life just moves swiftly on by?
That is my life.
One day you are a teenager, next a college student, then a new bride, a young mom, then BAM your oldest is headed to college, your middle child is pushing all the boundaries known to man at 16, and your baby is almost 11. 
You wake up in your 40's and just not sure how on earth you got there. 

That.  Is.  Me.

I blinked and here we are.  How did this happen?

I know how it happened.  We get so ever loving busy in the hustle and bustle of the every day that we forget to pay attention to the years passing.  I have heard it said over the years that "the minutes are long but the days are swift"...gracious.  If that isn't the biggest Truth.  This picture was two summers ago!

The Diva is about to head off to college, the Princess is 16 now, and the Pirate is still my love bug. but he is almost 4'11"!!!

So, I am busy savoring each moment of the Diva's last days at home and planning to do a lot better of being "in the moment" from now on.  One of my favorite quotes...Remember this day ne'er dawns again.  I kinda forgot that recently.  Each day is a gift and if we are not in the moment...we will miss it~