September 21, 2008
September 16, 2008
Aftermath of Ike
Beauty in the common things: Friends who love me
Listen in: a Train in the distance ( I love that I can hear them sometimes)
I am sitting here tonight feeling helpless. I need to be there to help my mom. By all accounts...she lost everything. Her house is standing but that is the best thing I can say from the pictures I have. Monica went over there for me and sent a few pictures to prepare me for what I will see. I have been a basket case since Friday. The news media coverage of San Leon is crap. Plain and simple. I and many, many other people have been communicating via online blogs and forums. Thank God for the internet. Many people are missing loved ones...many more are missing their entire (and I mean entire) houses. They are just gone. My mom was lucky in that she found her house there. But, I think it might have been better if it had been wiped off entirely. The antique piano floated over to the front door and you can't get it open. As a result the house is full of mud. My mom said there is nothing to salvage but I can't beleive that there is absolutly nothing. She doesn't want me to come because she donesn't think I can emotionally handle it. But, for my own piece of mind...I have to. Beyond the fact that she doesn't have anyone at all helping her...I need to go home. My home...which is more than that house...has by all accounts been destroyed and I need to see that in order to come to terms with it. I plan to take pictures of some of the homes and send them to those that are begging for information via the internet and also to try and find something for my mom. I have friends here watching my kids for me and I will only be there for two days. I hope I can get a lot done in that amount of time. I hope to figure out what my mom is going to do. She didn't have any insurance and she doesn't even know where to begin to start. Thankfully she already filed with FEMA.
I just am having so much trouble wrapping my mind around what has happened. I know so many people must have lost their life. The numbers don't add up. I think the media is keeping it hush, hush. I pray for the families that are out there just waiting to hear about their homes, friends, and family. Lord give me strength to do what I need to do and to make it through this strong enough to shoulder the burden for my mom. Amen!
Listen in: a Train in the distance ( I love that I can hear them sometimes)
I am sitting here tonight feeling helpless. I need to be there to help my mom. By all accounts...she lost everything. Her house is standing but that is the best thing I can say from the pictures I have. Monica went over there for me and sent a few pictures to prepare me for what I will see. I have been a basket case since Friday. The news media coverage of San Leon is crap. Plain and simple. I and many, many other people have been communicating via online blogs and forums. Thank God for the internet. Many people are missing loved ones...many more are missing their entire (and I mean entire) houses. They are just gone. My mom was lucky in that she found her house there. But, I think it might have been better if it had been wiped off entirely. The antique piano floated over to the front door and you can't get it open. As a result the house is full of mud. My mom said there is nothing to salvage but I can't beleive that there is absolutly nothing. She doesn't want me to come because she donesn't think I can emotionally handle it. But, for my own piece of mind...I have to. Beyond the fact that she doesn't have anyone at all helping her...I need to go home. My home...which is more than that house...has by all accounts been destroyed and I need to see that in order to come to terms with it. I plan to take pictures of some of the homes and send them to those that are begging for information via the internet and also to try and find something for my mom. I have friends here watching my kids for me and I will only be there for two days. I hope I can get a lot done in that amount of time. I hope to figure out what my mom is going to do. She didn't have any insurance and she doesn't even know where to begin to start. Thankfully she already filed with FEMA.
I just am having so much trouble wrapping my mind around what has happened. I know so many people must have lost their life. The numbers don't add up. I think the media is keeping it hush, hush. I pray for the families that are out there just waiting to hear about their homes, friends, and family. Lord give me strength to do what I need to do and to make it through this strong enough to shoulder the burden for my mom. Amen!
September 13, 2008
Advise from my Dad at 10:30 pm
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can...
and the Wisdom to know the difference.
The courage to change the things I can...
and the Wisdom to know the difference.
Early rise
Beauty in the common things: Baby Boy loving his swing that moves side to side
Listen In: Houston Channel 11 News playing on the digital antenna of DH's swanky tv
Plans for the day: DD7 is dancing at the mall later today and honestly: watching more coverage of this horrible hurricane.
Dinner Plans: I have no idea...something easy???
Prayer Needs for the day: My mom: she is possbibly going to wake up to find her home destroyed; My Family: I have several family memebers who are just now getting the brunt of the storm and they are scared; My friends in the Galveston/Houston area: same thing as mom and family; Baby Boy: that the reflux medicine really does work...had a good day yesterday; DH: that he finds happiness and financal peace with his work; myself: that I can figure out how balance it all and not leave anyone out.
So, it is 5:18 am according to my laptop...for those that may not know it...I DO NOT getup this early. But, I can't sleep. I am so worried about things I cannot do anything about. I have been able to watch almost continous coverage of what's going on down there, because Channel 11 from Houston is simalcasting up here on DH's fancy tv. I know you might say that constant watching only makes it worse. But, not for me. I actually have more peace knowing what is currently going on. Not a peace by any stretch of the imagination but I feel more in control. Not that I am...but I feel a sense of the control you get from information. By all account's this is a very bad storm and the outcome will Not be good. I want to know WHY in the HELL (sorry) people would want to stay home? WHY WHY WHY???? Why would people stay with their children??? WHY WHY WHY? I am angry at these unknown people. IF they want to play russian roulet with their own lives...so be it. But, why would they do it to their kids? I just don't get it?! The people that live across the street, well catycorner from my mom, stayed in San Leon. They are thinking they will be ok to ride out the storm because they have a warehouse building with a store onthe bottom and the home on the top. The weather service was estimating a 20 foot storm surge..on top of high tide. This is crazy! The ditches there flood if it rains! My mom's house is only 6 feet above sea level. Yesterday morning the water was at the bulk head at 8am, at 1pm or so...there was a foot of water in her house. That was the estimate from the crazy friends that did not leave. So, now it is 5:33 am and the second half of the storm is over San Leon, water is neck high in Galveston, and 82 mile an hour gusts in downtown Houston. Pray. For those people that stayed put!
Listen In: Houston Channel 11 News playing on the digital antenna of DH's swanky tv
Plans for the day: DD7 is dancing at the mall later today and honestly: watching more coverage of this horrible hurricane.
Dinner Plans: I have no idea...something easy???
Prayer Needs for the day: My mom: she is possbibly going to wake up to find her home destroyed; My Family: I have several family memebers who are just now getting the brunt of the storm and they are scared; My friends in the Galveston/Houston area: same thing as mom and family; Baby Boy: that the reflux medicine really does work...had a good day yesterday; DH: that he finds happiness and financal peace with his work; myself: that I can figure out how balance it all and not leave anyone out.
So, it is 5:18 am according to my laptop...for those that may not know it...I DO NOT getup this early. But, I can't sleep. I am so worried about things I cannot do anything about. I have been able to watch almost continous coverage of what's going on down there, because Channel 11 from Houston is simalcasting up here on DH's fancy tv. I know you might say that constant watching only makes it worse. But, not for me. I actually have more peace knowing what is currently going on. Not a peace by any stretch of the imagination but I feel more in control. Not that I am...but I feel a sense of the control you get from information. By all account's this is a very bad storm and the outcome will Not be good. I want to know WHY in the HELL (sorry) people would want to stay home? WHY WHY WHY???? Why would people stay with their children??? WHY WHY WHY? I am angry at these unknown people. IF they want to play russian roulet with their own lives...so be it. But, why would they do it to their kids? I just don't get it?! The people that live across the street, well catycorner from my mom, stayed in San Leon. They are thinking they will be ok to ride out the storm because they have a warehouse building with a store onthe bottom and the home on the top. The weather service was estimating a 20 foot storm surge..on top of high tide. This is crazy! The ditches there flood if it rains! My mom's house is only 6 feet above sea level. Yesterday morning the water was at the bulk head at 8am, at 1pm or so...there was a foot of water in her house. That was the estimate from the crazy friends that did not leave. So, now it is 5:33 am and the second half of the storm is over San Leon, water is neck high in Galveston, and 82 mile an hour gusts in downtown Houston. Pray. For those people that stayed put!
September 12, 2008
Ike
So, I am sitting on the living room floor, watching the Houston news. Somehow I am able to see it on the HD channels. Anyway, I am trying to wrap my brain around the fact that San Leon may not make it through this storm. It is mind boggling and scary. I am very glad my mom decided to leave. I am hoping that everyone I care about had the common sense to leave. Just sitting here waiting.....to see how bad Ike will be. Pray for Galveston and the surrounding coastal areas.
September 9, 2008
September 6, 2008
I am sooo tired....
Tonight I feel defeated. My house is a wreck, my homework isn't done, I am exhusted. DH went back to work last week and I have progressively gone downhill since. The girls are both back in school now and I have picked up some much needed hours at work, and I am taking one class two days a week at school; oh, and the girls have dance....
I know I do too much and usually I can do it with out feeling this way. Baby Boy sleeps every few nights well...but, several nights a week he screams. and screams, and screams. It is on these nights that I feel defeated. I am tired and DH is in bed for work at night. He has a CRAZY schedule and so...at night I am it. Tonight, the kids and I went to church, came home, and I started getting things together for dinner...Baby boy started fussing and that progressed to screaming for three hours. In this time, I still need to make dinner, straighted my house, mother my girls, and get laundry done. I finally put baby boy down to scream in his bed while I finished dinner. (Red Beans and rice-yum!) When I picked him up this time...he allowed me to rock him to sleep. The girls finally got to eat dinner at 10 pm and I should be doing other stuff. But, I am sitting here feeling lonely, exhusted, and asking how am I going to make it?? A great song is on the radio Mountain of God by Third Day. I need to rewind that and listen to it again!
I know this pitty party is largely due to the stress of other things and the fact that DH has been home for several weeks. I got used to having him around to lean on. It will get better. I am going to let the house go and go to bed. I need sleep!
I know I do too much and usually I can do it with out feeling this way. Baby Boy sleeps every few nights well...but, several nights a week he screams. and screams, and screams. It is on these nights that I feel defeated. I am tired and DH is in bed for work at night. He has a CRAZY schedule and so...at night I am it. Tonight, the kids and I went to church, came home, and I started getting things together for dinner...Baby boy started fussing and that progressed to screaming for three hours. In this time, I still need to make dinner, straighted my house, mother my girls, and get laundry done. I finally put baby boy down to scream in his bed while I finished dinner. (Red Beans and rice-yum!) When I picked him up this time...he allowed me to rock him to sleep. The girls finally got to eat dinner at 10 pm and I should be doing other stuff. But, I am sitting here feeling lonely, exhusted, and asking how am I going to make it?? A great song is on the radio Mountain of God by Third Day. I need to rewind that and listen to it again!
I know this pitty party is largely due to the stress of other things and the fact that DH has been home for several weeks. I got used to having him around to lean on. It will get better. I am going to let the house go and go to bed. I need sleep!
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